I wonder what a younger version of me would of thought of my life and where I am now.
I never saw my life going this way. I blame Disney. We all have this rose tinted perspective of how life will be when we are kids and then reality hits.
I would tell younger me that although you will go through hell and back, it will seem never ending, it will feel like you are completely alone at some points. You will eventually be at peace and happy with your life.
Without going through what I have been, I wouldn’t be the person I am now. It may have taken nearly 30 years to start standing up to narcissistic, controlling and manipulative people. But had I not met those people and endured what I have, then I wouldn’t be able to spot these personalities and walk away.
Although there is still more I want from life, I’m finally in the position to make that all happen. There will be no one to drag me into their drama and make my purpose in life their happiness and wellbeing. The people in my life now push me to better myself and go for what I want. I now have the self confidence to believe I can do what I need in order to get these things. I’m now happy to wake up in the morning and face the day. I now feel as though I’m in charge of my life and my mental health, not the other way around.
I think 5 year old me would be apprehensive but realise that October 2020 would be the time it all changes and even though it will be 24 years of struggles, things will eventually work out for the best.
Keep your focus on what you want and ignore the people who try to drag you back. Surround yourself with good people and chase what you want in life.
Unless the thing you want is pineapple on pizza to be normalised. I can’t get behind that type of dream, that’s just toxic. Nah sorry, pineapple doesn’t belong on delicious pizza. You obviously just want the world to burn. 🍕+🍍=🌍🔥
Take care, keep smiling.